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Thursday, August 23, 2012

Using TRAPWIRE to investigate misconduct in the Police State?

Good Cop, Bad Citizen? As Cellphone Recording Increases, Officers Are Uneasy

Posted Mar 1, 2012 4:40 AM CDT
By David L. Hudson Jr. from ABA Law Journal

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A plainclothes Maryland state trooper approaches speeding suspect Anthony Graber, who captured the encounter with a camera atop his motorcycle helmet and later posted the video on YouTube.
Walking past Boston Common, the city’s august park, in 2007, attorney Simon Glik noticed several police officers arresting a young man. Glik heard another bystander say he thought the police were using excessive force. So he pulled out his cellphone and began shooting video of the incident.



After arresting the young man, one of the officers turned to Glik, saying, “I think you have taken enough pictures.” When the officer asked Glik whether his audio recorder was on, Glik acknowledged it was. Glik was then arrested for violating a state wiretap law and two other state offenses.
The charges were subsequently dropped, but for Glik that was just the beginning. He filed a constitutional tort suit alleging violation of his First and Fourth Amendment rights. The officers filed a motion to dismiss, contending they were entitled to qualified immunity, enabling government officials to avoid liability if they don’t violate clearly established constitutional or statutory law. But a federal district court denied the officers’ claim.
And last August, the 1st U.S. Circuit Court of Appeals at Boston ruled in Glik v. Cunniffe that the officers violated Glik’s clearly established constitutional right to video-record the police performing their duties in public.
“Our recognition that the First Amendment protects the filming of government officials in public spaces accords with the decisions of numerous circuit and district courts,” the panel wrote. The case went back to the federal district court and the parties are in discovery.
With the ubiquity of cellphones, the ease of video-recording and the availability of such websites as YouTube, people can respond quickly to police incidents and broadly circulate the recordings.

POINT AND SHOOT

“The prevalence of cellphone cameras with high enough resolutions for people to record the police and then be able to disseminate it over the Internet” is a major reason for the video-recording, says Boston attorney Jeffrey P. Hermes, director of the Citizen Media Law Project.
But law officers are often uncomfortable. “Many officers are also uncomfortable that their activities might be displayed on the Internet and otherwise widely distributed,” says Portland, Ore., lawyer Bert P. Krages, who specializes in the area. “Some also have the impression that photography presents a security risk and are acting according to a post-9/11 mentality.”
Adds Krages: “Law enforcement personnel are still grappling with the idea that ordinary citizens have the right to take images, whereas previously such photographs and videos were taken by professionals employed by traditional media companies.”

“When you talk about citizen journalists, there is also a slightly different relationship between those individuals and the police and the relationship that many mainstream journalists have with the police,” Hermes says. “Those mainstream journalists who cover the police have developed an understanding with the police that many private individuals have not.”
The 1st Circuit found it irrelevant that Glik was a private citizen rather than a professional journalist. “The proliferation of electronic devices with video-recording capability means that many of our images of current events come from bystanders with a ready cellphone or digital camera rather than a traditional film crew,” the court said. “Such developments make clear why the news-gathering protections of the First Amendment cannot turn on professional credentials or status.”

CASES IN PLAY

Glik is far from the only case. The American Civil Liberties Union of Illinois also has a case pending in the Chicago-based 7th Circuit that challenges the constitutionality of the Illinois Eavesdropping Act, as it applies to making video and audio recordings of police performing their public duties.
ACLU of Illinois v. Alvarez, filed in August 2010, claims the broad nature of the Illinois law may expose ACLU members to arrest. “The act makes audio-recording police officers in these circumstances a felony,” the complaint states. “Due to a reasonable fear of arrest and prosecution, the ACLU is restrained from engaging in this conduct.”
A federal district court dismissed the case as moot in October 2010 and the ACLU appealed. Oral argument took place in the 7th Circuit last September.
In May 2011, Emily Good was arrested in Rochester, N.Y., for taking video of police conducting a traffic stop on the street in front of her yard. According to published accounts, police told her they didn’t feel safe with her there. She was later taken into custody.



In April 2010, Anthony Graber faced an indictment in Abingdon, Md., after he recorded a state trooper giving him a ticket and then posted the video on YouTube. Graber, a 25-year-old staff sergeant for the Maryland Air National Guard, was riding his motorcycle down Interstate 95. On top of his helmet was a camera he often used to record his journeys.



The camera was rolling when an unmarked gray sedan cut him off. A man wielding a gun emerged from the driver’s side, yelling at Graber and ordering him to get off his bike. Only then did the state trooper identify himself and holster his weapon. Graber was cited for doing 80 in a 65-mph zone.
Graber accepted his ticket, then posted his video. A few weeks later, he was awakened by six officers raiding his parents’ home, where he lived with his wife and two children. He learned later that a grand jury indictment alleged he had violated state wiretap laws by recording the trooper without his consent.
“Police justifications come in a few different flavors,” Hermes says. There are security concerns and charges of violating wiretap laws, which vary by state. But police also claim they are covered by qualified immunity. The doctrine shields government officials from liability for the violation of an individual’s federal constitutional rights—so long as the official’s actions, even if later found to be unlawful, did not violate “clearly established law.”
David Milton, a Boston-based attorney who represents Glik, points to the 2010 case Kelly v. Borough of Carlisle. There the 3rd Circuit at Philadelphia granted qualified immunity to a police officer who arrested a passenger in a vehicle he had pulled over for speeding. The officer discovered the passenger was video-recording him and claimed the passenger violated Pennsylvania’s Wiretap Act. The appeals court determined that the officer was entitled to qualified immunity because he reasonably believed he had the authority to arrest the passenger.
Part of the problem, Milton says, stems from a 2009 U.S. Supreme Court decision, Pearson v. Callahan, in which the justices said lower courts had the option of deciding cases based on whether the law was clearly established, without first determining whether there had been a violation of individual constitutional rights.
But Glik altered the balance, saying there is a clearly established right to monitor the police.
“On the First Amendment issue, the concept that there is a clearly established right seems consistent with prior case law in the 1st Circuit and the experience of media recording in public as long as there have been video cameras,” Hermes says. “For decades we have had television stations recording in public and not facing sanctions.”
 Adds Milton: “What is so good about the 1st Circuit decision in Glik is that the judges recognized that even though there may not be a prior case of a police officer in a park with a person on a cellphone, basic long-standing First Amendment principles clearly apply to the situation even though it involves new technology.”
Although there is no Supreme Court ruling that finds a right to record in public, Hermes says, many believe there is a clearly established constitutional right to monitor the police.
“Police serve a vital function and most law enforcement officers are very decent people who should be commended,” Krages says.

“However,” he adds, “the police are in a position to grossly abuse civil liberties, and the bad ones cause a lot of harm. In many situations, a determination of what actually happened comes down to deciding whether the officer is more credible than a suspect or citizen. Consumer-level imaging, particularly video, has captured images of officers acting very inappropriately in all sorts of situations.”
Learn more about Professor Hudson here... http://law.vanderbilt.edu/hudson or visit his website at http://www.davidlhudsonjrbooks.com/index.html

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David L. Hudson Jr. is a scholar at the First Amendment Center where he writes for the Center’s website, speaks to the media and lectures on a variety of First Amendment issues. He is the author, co-author or co-editor of more than 35 books, including Let The Students Speak: A History of the Fight for Free Expression in American Schools (Beacon Press, 2011), The Encyclopedia of the First Amendment (CQ Press, 2008)(one of three co-editors), The Rehnquist Court: Understanding Its Impact and Legacy (Praeger, 2006), and The Handy Supreme Court Answer Book (Visible Ink Press, 2008). He has written several books devoted to student-speech issues and others areas of student rights. He also serves as a First Amendment contributing editor for the American Bar Association's Preview of United States Supreme Court Cases. Professor Hudson teaches First Amendment and Professional Responsibility classes at Vanderbilt.

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Using TRAPWIRE to investigate misconduct in the Police State? 

by Elyssa Durant, Ed.M. Policy Analyst and Citizen Journalist with a Camera Phone


I was trying to de-escalate the situation with the local Police Department since I realize how much danger this city is in given recent laws to persecute Muslims and people who were not born in the United States 287(g)
However, after watching the violence erupting around me, knowing that I am the primary target [thanks to COINTELPRO agent provocateurs] and being questioned by the police about my twitter stream, I really don't give a fuck.
These people have no idea how they are being manipulated by disinformation agents, toxic living conditions and a system that is far more corrupt than even I imagined.
The "monitor" who controls the surveillance cameras clearly has some special deal with Metro because despite all the violence that broke out, he finds the time to threaten, harass and stalk me ignoring the fact that several residents threatened me after spooks came in and told people to stay away from me or they will "get in trouble"
WHAT THE FUCK? I have no history of violence and have never even been in a fight,I weigh 124 pounds and all these people are afraid of me? Do I "look dangerous" because I am quite certain it won't be long before someone makes another attempt on my life.
Much like Trayvon Martin, I was told police were on there way after a man threw a brick through my window and then chased me down the street.
I was on the phone with 911 the whole time screaming "HELP, HELP, HELP" yet the police claim they did not want to waste radio space to update status of my call to a Code 3. Are you fucking kidding me?
911 told me to return to the scene of the crime where I was assaulted a second time, and the cops didn't even bother to arrest him or take witness statements. In fact, the officer would not even step out of the car to speak with me because he did not like the way I was dressed.
Because no action was taken against the man that assaulted me and vowed to kill and my father (who just happens to be a former Fed) I constantly carry my iPhone because the cops claim they did not have enough evidence to arrest this man. They never bothered to check the surveillance camera and did not take statements from additional witnesses.
They did, however take issue with the fact that I placed a video on YouTube and were even more upset that I contacted a former colleague in the Mayor's Office who then requested an investigation. They sent two Lieutenants to my home; one was aggressive and disrespectful and was more interested in what book I was reading and my website than the facts of the case.
I was told that they would follow up with the other witnesses who would corroborate my story, and that a Special Operations Unit and Gang Unit would be contacted regarding the racial comments that became commonplace every time I left the apartment.
One man hung up Nazi flags, another started praying in Muslim and all hell broke loose in the neighborhood. I became a target because I was white in a Black neighborhood, and apparently that alone was enough to incite hatred among the other tenants and I feared for life each time I left my apartment, so the police told me NOT to leave my home. THAT IS OUTRAGEOUS.
The other tenants became more and more abusive and violent since they now had a new sense of entitlement because they knew the police would not take action.
It is worth noting that even after I left, the violence continued to escalate and one women was stabbed and several other injured in fights that broke out in the hallway. The cops still did not arrest the people who continue to live in the neighborhood, and some of them have shown up here at my new apartment to harass me and spread rumors.
The neighbors here have suddenly became abusive and overly concerned with my religion and it seems the writing is on the wall. They think my healthy paranoia is "suspicious" and I think their behavior is outrageous.
They constantly stand outside my window and scream at me and the "monitor" called the police on me after he threatened me and told me I was not allowed to go near a "white car." There were SIX white cars, two of which have no tags, so how am I to know which white car is the one who stopped me at the mailbox and told me that two men were knocking at my door and were here to beat me up?
I may very well be the next Treyvan Martin and if so, so be it. I am old enough and experienced enough to know that these people do not see the bigger picture~ that they are being used to as examples to bring down the police state and usher in the New World Order.
I leave these notes because I do not know if I will get shot at today, tomorrow or next week, and I think it is important to let people know that I have spent my entire life studying gang violence, and have fought hard against police corruption and discrimination so regardless of what happens to me, I do not want my work (or experience) to be in vain.
I am one of the good guys, and if you can't see that by now... then take some time to look through some of my publications which are systematically being removed from the internet by groups like Anonymous, Lulz, and AntiSec.
This breaks my heart, but I am fighting a losing battle. I am starting to question my commitment and given the communities response~ I am not sure if they are worth the sacrifice.

That's all for today. This is the Daily Dose for March 29, 2012.

Just me,

e

@ELyssaD 


ANOTHER POST THE POLICE TOOK ISSUE WITH:

Metro Nashville Police Department continue to cover up crimes by failing to follow established code of conduct in lower income neighborhoods.

Some power hungry police officer demands to search my iPhone after he notices I am video taping the MNPD who took three hours to respond to multiple neighbors call 911 after witnessing multiple violent assaults against two women and one man on Monday evening.

I called 911 after two people approached my window threatening my life for being a "cracker Jew bitch" and threw a brick through my window where I was working on two projects about Cointelpro as a driving force behind the Occupy movement that is being funded by The American Nazi Party and the Lucis Trust.

I was interviewing someone who had been involved with Nazi medical experiments and how it effected his four children who suffer with a variety of neurological and psychological problems that are typical of victims of Mengele's subjects.

I had just received notification from the copyright office (USTPO) in Virginia that my submission was approved and was thrilled to learn that my publications and identity would be protected under trademark and copyright laws since I received several take down notices from the police and google that my site was in danger of being seized due to the number of complaints received about the content: THE TRUTH.

Ironic when I noticed which posts were being removed due to the sensitive nature (and my vast knowledge) about the true purpose of organized, controlled opposition as a driving force to escalate domestic unrest designed to incite violence justifying a Police State ushering in the New World Order.

This is not the first, second, or even third time I have been stopped by undercover police or random uniforms knocking on my door to search my cell.

One cop came running after me, demanded to see my cell phone and after running my license to check for warrants (which seemed extreme) and finding none, he wrote up an incident report for "suspicious behavior" for video taping a crime scene. 

He not only searched my cell phone without a warrant, but proceeded to DELETE crime scene photos.  

THAT IS A VIOLATION OF BOTH THE FOURTH AND THE FOURTEENTH AMENDMENT, AND THAT'S ABOUT AS SERIOUS AS IT GETS. 

RELEVANT HISTORY THAT HAS NEVER BEEN MADE PUBLIC:

Despite being a "confidential" informant in an undercover sting operation that went bad [way bad] in 2009 at the request of the Mayor's Office and several police officers not to be named at this time, I became an informant when I saw people selling prescription drugs to teenagers in DCS custody.  

I wanted it to stop, and at the police sergeant's request, I agreed to work with the Crime Suppression Unit to keep these kids from inevitable path to lifelong addiction and criminal behavior.

 I was instructed to report on the illegal activities, which included taking down license plates and traffic patterns indicative of illegal drug sales.  

After lengthy discussions with my contact in the department,  the majority of all follow up communications were via e-mail on my cell phone so my neighbors would not hear me discussing the situation.

That fateful day my cell was jammed and hacked, I was unable to receive or send critical communications to alert me that shit went bad, and my cover was blown.

None of this ever made it though the network, and the e-mails reside on a microchip that is an UNDISCLOSED LOCATION with about 40 back ups at the ACLU, FBI, and Nightly News just in case something happens to me before I transfer out of here into a safer jurisdiction.

That was the first, but not the last time my cell was jammed and hacked.

I could not receive communications or directions from the crime suppression unit, and I wound up being assaulted and hospitalized after one of  the bullets hit my window. 

I was promised a police escort and advanced warning, but they never showed up, until they did with automatic assault rifles at my front door. 

It was too late.

I have never disclosed those emails, however they have since been accessed by hackers from Lulz, AntiSec and whoever accessed my computer when I was out of town this time last year. 

How do I know? Because the PC hadn't been turned on in several years and the last ten documents opened were my detailed call records and an e-mail to a certain politician who also had his cell phone records searched and used against him in an ugly court battle and political campaign.

SO, they're you have it folks The truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth, so help me [aliens]

Now, an obvious target by the police department, I am constantly harassed, stopped, searched, interrogated or subjected to "unofficial complaints" of harassment that always seem to follow a pattern I know all too well.

SO, when the investigator tries to tell me that I would not make a good witness since I called 911 from my closet AFTER the brick came through my window, what they mean is, we will make sure your credibility is destroyed through false reports, and constant harassment should you ever decide to sue us for police misconduct.  

Well, fuck you!

After yet another incident where the police failed to respond to a life threatening situation in a timely manner, insult and intimidate me, three times in 24 hours, then ultimately release the suspect claiming there is not enough evidence??

I CALL TRAPWIRE!!
When you refuse to take witness statements; reveal your name or badge numbers, and another violent criminal continues to terrorize me for months on end, and the police refuse to review the live feed trapwire video that would show beyond any shadow of a doubt that this man assaulted me AND three other individuals within minutes of being released?

No evidence? Check the fucking surveillance cams just above the the scene of the crime.

Hell, check MY surveillance cam! I don't leave home without it!


Just me,

e
@ELyssaD


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Tuesday, October 11, 2011

DailyDDoSe™ October 11, 2011 by @ELyssaD™ Justice for TCFM (and stupid too)

October 11, 2011 9:22PM EST





Agent Daddy is currently trying to pass legislation that would make it illegal to be a Total Complete Fucking Moron (TCFM) AND stupid too.

He even tried to arrest some fuckwits using his old badge from his days as Deputy Chief of Criminal Investigations with the Department of Justice: Eastern District of Pennsylvania.

He was just peeved that he had to put up with some loud teenagers on the train after one of his clients boiled his hard drive to destroy legal evidence from his VERY high profile Wall Street Firm.

Agent Daddy & I don't agree on much~ especially when it involves the law, but we do agree on this little piece of fantasy legislation!

My father and I have very different views on justice. Especially white collar crime and corporate crime.

I personally feel it is more serious and has a greater potential for harm against the American citizens than most street crime. But he is the expert.

On both.

Prosecutor, Arbitrator, Defense (Judge and Jury) dating back to ABSCAM, MOVE, Five Squad and the War on Drugs.

From there he moved on to White Collar Criminal Defense and represented scum who make millions off junk bonds, Ponzi schemes, RICO, extortion and other shady deals that defraud the public and the United States (including the FDA) I could name names, but all you need to do is a little search on Westlaw keyword "fraud"

Daddy thinks it is a game. One he has played quite well since he graduated at the top of his class at Harvard Law the year before I was born.

As an expert in computer crimes, I went to him after my pc, cell and life was hack3d.

His assistant, Frank, a decent honest man who was wrongfully indicted and tried for RICO Conspiracy while working the under Federal authority of Drug Czar, Bill Bennett (Daddy's racquetball partner) and was acquitted the same year my father terminated all parental obligations. 1988.

My father petitioned the court and then signed off (as a Judge pro tempore for the Philadelphia Court of Common Pleas reversing ALL support orders when I was fifteen years old. The court docket is dated August 15, 1988.

As the judge of record, even the most basic legal obligations were simply "vacated" and I have paid for it ever since. Health care fraud and abuse of process were established when I appealed to the Insurance Department and the Department of Public Welfare under a Title IV-D request.

All parties ruled in my favor yet none had the authority to override the bogus court order or enforce the $100/day penalty fee for each day I was denied a copy of my benefits book (EOBs) after I provided overwhelming evidence that my health insurance benefits were being used illegally for a variety of reasons.

I was accepted into a doctoral program in (ironically) Health Policy Evaluation and received financial aid offers only to learn that my taxes were being fucked with too. I was "randomly selected" for verification by the Department of Education (not so random) and the IRS and the Financial Aid Office demanded copies of my PARENT's tax returns.

Meanwhile Blue Shield Blue Cross demanded a QMCSO to treat a spinal lesion that in my thoracic spine that went untreated until it was too late to stop the progression of the degenerative condition that would leave me unable to write or feel my hands for most of my twenties and early-mid thirties.

Terminal liability and COBRA were non issues with out that little piece of paper (Qualified Medical Child Support Orders and all other legally mandated child support under ERISA, and other mandatory state and federal health care laws.

Frank told me the truth. And though I only met him a few times, he was the one who sent me proof of insurance and I beg each and every person who happens upon this hidden post to please start a legal defense fund for Frank and donate generously since he is the one who selflessly ran interference between my father and I to help me get healthcare.

After years of abusive legal bullshit, I turned to Frank when I learned how serious the hacking was and learned that my father was all too aware that evidence and legal documents were being systematically removed from my private folders. Documents he sent me from Munich that threatened to terminate all my benefits as a result of my parents' criminal negligence; and fancy financial footwork (FRAUD).

Last October a "do-gooder" listed me as a missing person after my cell was jammed and someone wrote a bullshit piece that was circulated by strangers who knew nothing about me or my circumstances.

They called the police because I didn't respond to a text message from a stalking psycho who then issued missing persons report and THIS made the news? 1. I don't have text messaging on that number. 2. Even if I did, I wouldn't take their calls anyway. Self-righteous political puppets and busy bodies that relentlessly used my story and blog posts to promote their own agenda (and I kinda drive traffic ~ 3/4 million

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Friday, January 28, 2011

Protests in Egypt: A Sign of the Times

Why does Egypt matter?

Watch closely and reflect on what is happening in Egypt.

I use the internet as my primary source of communications. I have 13 gigs of spyware, malware and other junk that somehow found it's why onto my hard drive in less than 63 days!

I didn't have broadband until last month! I have no cable television and I can barely get a signal on my TV-- not that there is much worth watching-- but I would like to see the news and see WTH is going on in the world.

But you grow used to the silence-- I did not even own a television until a few months ago.

I have had more than a dozen cell phones in less than one year because the damn things keep freezing on me. App Error 200. I shit you not-- coincidence? Maybe. But anyone who purchases more than 3 cell phones in one year is automatically placed on the terrorist watch list. Then again, I live in a state where the ACLU is on the watch list!

Sound bizarre? I hope so, cause it certainly does sound "normal" to me!

Welcome to my life.

The United States has long had the capability to monitor, jam, and cut communications at will. Without cause or justification.

I live in the United States of America. I care what is happening in Egypt because I know it could happen here.

Am I a whistleblower? Yes, I am.
Am I anonymous? Not so much.
Am I a terrorist? Hell, no.
Am I on the watch list? You bet your sweet ass I am!



IN MY COUNTRY?



"First they came for the communists,
and I didn't speak out because I wasn't a communist.


Then they came for the trade unionists,
and I didn't speak out because I wasn't a trade unionist.


Then they came for the Jews,
and I didn't speak out because I wasn't a Jew.


Then they came for me
and there was no one left to speak out for me."

Friedrich Gustav Emil Martin Niemöller
(14 January 1892 – 6 March 1984)


"Somewhere to run, Nowhere to hide?"
~Cathy O'Brien, The Trance-formation of America

ACCESS DENIED: For Reason of National Security

#USA #TN05 #JAN25 #EGYPT

Saturday, March 6, 2010

Babies Raising Babies

--------ORIGINAL MESSAGE--------
From: T.A. James
Sent: 2008-01-29 23:12:09
Subject: Message from T.A. James
IN RESPONSE TO: A VOICE FOR THE VOICELESS

A Voice for the Voiceless

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Do you really want to know what happens to children in state custody once they turn 18? This article addresses the problems associated with transitioning youth out of Child Services and into adulthood. 
 
I love your article "A Voice for the Voiceless,” keep up the great work in bringing attention to the not too stable system impact on children even to the age of what's considered adulthood.

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Thank you so much for your words of encouragement!
I was voiceless once myself-- but keep checking my site—but decided around New Years and my 35th birthday that I was silent WAY too long and decided to start putting a few pieces of myself out there…

I guess at this point in my life-- I have realized that people need to know that abuse can happen anywhere to anyone even to children "like myself" (a high school drop-out turned Ivy League graduate) should not be discounted.
Born to a wealthy, Jewish family with what appeared to be the perfect breeding ground for success— I found myself on my own at 15. At 22 I learned that my child custody and support orders had been “respectfully” terminated by the courts— and there it was. Just me. No money, no place to go, and a father who is famous for his legal maneuverings and handiwork— however unethical it may be.

People just did not get it. For years. Most probably never will. I still have days where I wonder what I did to make them hate me so much that they would allow me to live with so little— homelessness, penniless, and suffering with an extremely painful medical condition at such a young age; while they have so much.
Millions, in fact. Millions on top of millions. Nevertheless, it happens— even in “political,” beautiful, wealthy, overeducated families like the one my mother still pretends to live in. Just last night, in tears, I asked my sister, an Ivy educated attorney who lives without the burden of student loans collection agencies, and medical bills that must be paid before I can even dream of putting the trauma of knowing that I simply was not important enough to be supported financially, emotionally, or medically.
You see the money was there— the desire to spend it on a mouthy teenager was not. So my case was unprecedented— and though Pennsylvania Act 62 and Blue v. Blue made it to the Supreme Court— I will never see the inside of a courtroom despite the overwhelming evidence (and ruling from the Insurance Department and the Department of Public Welfare that I did in fact have enforceable rights— if not as a child, as a so-called beneficiary on a faulty tax return and three health insurance policies that I could not use.
Yes, there were civil penalties I could have collected, but when your father is one of the most prominent attorneys in the region and the Judge who presided over the termination order— finding representation was near impossible. My mother signed away my rights and my future when I was only 15— I sometimes wonder what I could have done differently to make them care enough to see that my basic needs were met.
However, this was not about needs, this was about power, control, and a profound oversight from every single court and agency I contacted for help. My parents underestimated me. Then again— I underestimated myself too. I think my father would regret terminating my child support order — and in effect— my childhood— if he could see me today. He might even feel a little bit proud to know that I made it on my own and I have managed to make it this long without a dime from any of his offshore accounts.
And if could he could see inside my heart— maybe he would even want to know me or undo some of the actions that have left me broken but beautiful inside and out.

I wish he could see me right now. Who I am, who I have become, and how much I have lost living in the past. Me without the pain— without the memories— and without the questions. Without the debt. Without the shame. Without the shame and guilt, without being a burden on my family or the financial burden I clearly am to society….

I may find my way without my natural born family— but the further I move away, the closer they seem….

I know in my heart that I need to tell this story so no one will ever experience such total devastation due to ignorance of the law— or fear I feel when I think of the future.
Constantly wonder how we can turn our back on any child— but I need to know how they could turn their backs on me.
I am too old too be worried that I might be discovered for the "throw-away" child I once was.



Miss Desiree and Baby Niya

I have battled for years with shame over my lost years (you know, the ones that keep me awake at night and on my toes when I meet someone new; search the internet; or find myself trapped in a place— a memory that I can never truly escape. The words never fade, the wounds never heal, but I have hope that my experience and my voice will bring services (not just comfort and compassion) but compel people to ACT!

Somewhere between the child I never was and the person I am today… I developed skills. Not just fuzzy words and warm sentiments— but I actually learned how to get what I needed. But sadly, for me, it was too late. I have the basics— for the most part— I can get anybody from here to there, so why then can’t I do it for myself?

Thanks for the encouragement-- I was so afraid that I might compromise my professionalism or my ability to be taken seriously if people knew the truth about my past-- but your words and others who have seen what I am working on give me so much strength that I can channel into my work, and the children I encounter each day.


I was reluctant at first to publish that piece because I was afraid that people may see it as transparent and know that I am really telling my own story-- but the response has been so heartwarming that it almost makes up for the silent years where all I had were my journals, my truth, and myself.


Thank you again so very much-- I cried early this morning over the past, but I thank you for giving me the strength to go forward with the rest of my day as the person I knew in my heart I could become. I am revising something I wrote a few years ago that I think you might enjoy-- my story. No holding back-- and maybe one of these days, I'll have the confidence and the courage to post it online, but for now, I think you may also enjoy you may enjoy "Good Fences."

Have a wonderful day and do not forget -- it only takes ONE person to give a child the strength they need to overcome the impossible. For me that person was my graduate school advisor but today that person is you!

My Adviser, and saving grace was Bob Crain-- professor of sociology and politics at Columbia University — and though he is best known best known for his work on the study that became famous for the title "There are no children here," he showed me that I had much more to offer than just a pretty smile.

While I was struggling with PTSD long after I left “home” he always made me feel as though I was more than what the custody papers said— and helped me to find a way to use my past, my pain, and my childhood/adolescent experience to navigate a course that seemed most unlikely and impossible alone.


I took that book title, “There Are No Children Here” and ran with it. Today you will see a sign posted outside my front door that reads, "There Are No Victims Here!"
Thanks T.A., my head is no longer in the past, and my tears have dried. I am ready for a new day— a new fight, and a new challenge.


Have a fabulous day and do not forget to remind someone in your life how they have made your day just a little bit brighter.

With sincere appreciation and gratitude,

ElyssaD

Monday, December 7, 2009

NIMBY FOOTNOTE FROM MARCH 2009

Grant Money Well Spent?


This is only part of the story... But definitely NOT all of it.


My computer, meds, printer, transcripts, and even my diplomas & Social Security card were left in puddles in the pouring rain.



FROM LANDLORD PLAYING DUMB: 
 You were there Tuesday?
I understand that you cannot move your items today from the building but that you can over the weekend. I will make sure that the building is unlocked tomorrow and Sunday.




ELYSSA BEING A SMART ASS: ,

John:

Please note that the photos are time and geostamped, so you may wish to reconsider the possibility that I tend to tell the truth, especially when my personal safety is at risk. Keep in mind, I have no history of violent, criminal, or psychotic behavior. .  Can you say that if the other three tenants?

You might consider running a background check the next time you allow an unsuspecting person to rent a room in a house that clearly requires more than just a $250,000 grant.

I believe in full disclosure.  It may not hurt you to let the next person know exactly what they can expect.


This is not what anyone interested in transitioning homeless would or should or could do to a person picking up the pieces that have been ripped, torn, flooded, from my life since I first agreed to give testimony regarding shots fired in a MDHA and federally funded property in March of 2009.

Maybe that NIMBY crowd has the right idea.  If only I could make back over to their side of the tracks. More later. On that you can rely...



THIS IS WHY I HAVE NO "STUFF"  no bed, no kitchen ware, no respect. all of my clothing is needs to be washed because it is moldy, I'm out of quarters.  this is not how a responsible, federally funded program operates. I read the HUD agreement.

Who is looking out for people in these situations.  Yes, I hear the crazy jokes, shit-- I make the crazy jokes. 
 
None of this is not funny. I may be crazy, but wouldn't you be a little unsettled that nobody, and I mean NOBODY cares enough about me or any human being to lift a finger to help. 

So here are the pics... how would you feel if you found all your belongings locked up in a flooded dog cage before you had a chance to get a truck or find a "friend' to help you move into a place of your own?