A Matter of Trust?

NO MORE GAMES

American Citizens Surrender Civil Liberties to a Culture of Fear

The United States Government is using similar tactics by planting #falseflags to further erode civil liberties and allows us to continue wasteful spending for military intelligence. Military intelligence is an oxymoron.

The m.o. is to create a culture of fear and we have a public that is so ignorant and misinformed that they allow disinformation agents to perpetuate this "war" on terror.

We invest BILLIONS in "defense" which is a farce and a way of channeling money to blue chips to escalate the arms race.

We are willing to tolerate incredible injustices and conveniently ignore the habitual torture practices of the CIA and companies like Blackwater (Monsonto) and COINTELPRO; covert operatives; psyops and BlackOps.

Wake up America, you have no rights!

Kinda makes me want to go out and get a gun! LOL

 

Cybotage and the Hacktivist Culture: BUSTED

Daily dose of TM

Staus: Halted in progress (yay me @ElyssaD)

I don't if know if you received this email. My netbook crashed as I as sending and it froze for 26 hours.

But I did the information for SafeLink program which is wonderful because my extremely "bazaar" and changes the cell service every few days without informing me. Tmobile will not provide information at all so I can't access email because they reset the password. Ironically, the ONE legal snafu with that little welfare phone...  the bitch fucked me there too... by claiming me AGAIN as a dependent in New York State.

As you know she claimed as a dependent on her tax returns without my consent or knowledge.

The IRS informed me of this breach since every time I went to file my taxed they were rejected by the IRS because it showed up a duplicate Tax (Social Security ID)

She claims that her accountant did and she knew nothing about it (if you could only picture my face and feel the sarcasm in voice as I am forced to repeat this information time and time again to any and all "agencies" who make inquired) she however does see this as a problem and refuses to file an amended return (cost $70.00) so once again I am rendered incapable of establishing independent (in every sense of the

word)

In addition, my father, well... Here we go...

My father as you know agreed to be my representative payee for Social Security disability. Obviously that was a big mistake on my part and has yet to be resolved. Congressman Cooper's office totally dropped the ball and said there is nothing they can do. I requested that reopen the investigation, and despite my persistent nice (which is both annoying and immense) they simply do pretend that I don't exist. Governor Bredesen sent an email telling me to call the President.

Seriously, are you kidding me?

So this is where we stand: no Social Security never received the money that received in ITOLA account during the months I spent sleeping in my car or at the lake last summer.

And yes. I did spend a week or so at "The Mission" when I ran out of gas, energy, and hope last August. My father still was receiving the money, but did not pay bills, or release to me in time to prevent the inevitable total disconnection of any and all services (utilities) making it near impossible to re-establish service. They required excessive fees for deposits and past due balances.


http://youtu.be/UkVtucGFaqc

HACKTIVISM 101

As per federal law, my father, Marc Durant is responsible for paying those fees as they were a direct result of his failure to act in my best interest but also a breach of fiduciary duty.

Now, to make matters worse, every time they seem to locate the paperwork it gets redirected to the Philadelphia field office. So The US Dept of Treasury located the funds that were never sent "in error" some bank account (probably in the Cayman's or wherever rich people go to hide there money ~ note both the sarcasm and the simple fact that this is most likely true. It is sad that even to put in these little side notes to even use the one things that through this mess...

Dark sarcasm and a little bit of humor. I'm sick of making excuses for these people (mother: Karen, and father: Leslie Marc Durant) so I am laying it down on the table for whomever it cares to question and blame me for this "unfortunate" situation..

These are the facts. And I need to take a break because my fingers are getting cramps and my back is in spasm.

But I will continue to "the facts" out as long so that I can be free of the constant struggle to be independent, self-sufficient and EMPLOYED! This is absurdity and I realize I have people who do see the obvious truth here. Yet in the real world and the everyday struggle to be "human" continues.

My mother will always be #batshitcrazy

My father will always be #abovethelaw

But I will not always have the strength or the ability to communicate effectively given my financial, physical and emotional reality.

I am aware. I am aware that this is too much for one person to handle and I don't blame those walk away in disgust and frustration because they don't understand the intricate details of the law or the immense emotional drama AND trauma that I face each day without resolution.

I understand that people need to believe that these are the ramblings of a mad woman. If that were true I would say by all means, give me the strongest does of anti psychotics asap. As I think most people are

starting to realize, unfortunately, these facts check out.

There is no treatment for the habitual and continued ignorance of the public at large.

It is not my job soothe them or educate them as in law, sociology, and "the world according to me @ElyssaD"

I do the best I can because I know how serious and pervasive certain components of my story ring true for a number of people.

I will do the best I can to fight that stigma and the emotional torture I live with every single say.

Godammit, I hope this thing sends. It is bad enough that I am typing all this shit on cell phone because AT&T wants a $450 non refundable fee plus $150 deposit, plus $49 for installation for internet.

So in the spirit of which it was intended:

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Wishing myself luck. I know these words are dangerous to some, especially in light of the guy who got arrested for sending out a threatening tweet. Yeah, ~ insert sarcasm about here ~ if you think my words are "dangerous" than you need you deserve to be scared!

(Laughs to oneself as I know I am not a physical threat to anyone but let's face it, if you don't get it you never will. And if this is a lesson is Social Darwinism, let the dumb ones live in fear! And to quote (without permission or proper citation to be added!) But "If this tweet offends you, probably deserve it!"

 @icpchad Yes. I am aware. Now format this bitch and enter it into your contest. I deserve win something... Maybe an iTHINGY or iNTERNET. Not just iWANT that is a legitimate iNEED in the world I live in.

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---------- Forwarded message ----------

From: Elyssa Durant

Date: Tue, 11 May 2010 19:32:58 -0500

Subject: New Microsoft Office Word Document

To: elyssa.durant@yahoo.com, ELYSSA DURANT

Thanks Stacy... I had a hearing at Social Security about two weeks ago.

Very depressing. It cost $44 to or transportation, and they already reversed the decision now I have to go back again and file the same paperwork.

I have not received anything from Section 8 which has me concerned, and my I am a really difficult time with without internet, TV, transportation.... or even a library w/in walking distance.

Especially with the weather this weekend... I had no idea until I heard the sirens. and then of everything was closed... and in 'the hood" it is cash culture, so of course ppl became very aggressive [aka mean] fighting over bottle of water and at the gas station when they reopened.

my mother cancelled changed the password on the "family plan" after we had "words" regarding well... really nothing... but today has just been especially difficult since I don't have reliable phone service... which of course is both a security and comfort issue for someone who writes as a form of therapy..

I just received this alert on my computer email... I don't even know where to start...

I received the invitation to the info session on WIPA that you guys did...unfortunately transportation is problematic.

I have been receiving a lot of from people online... as silly as it sounds there are so many ppl isolated and lonely. So I found they have forums for ppl with PTSD and it has been very helpful to have eed back that I am not the only one feeling left behind in the disability movement.

Apparently I managed to reach a few ppl locally who call [my number is public] to ask if I had any success with the housing and re-employment programs. it makes me feel like I can be of some service to the community... social services just got hear so I need to sign off but I have received so many fraud alert that other people e.g., EFF and other human right agencies have started to ask about my story.

All I can say is that I did write a review online for the Center for Independent Living at disabilty.gov website when they were looking to for feedback on reemployment programs... I also had an article in USA Today and the Hufffington Post that made me hopeful and regret at the same time... this is a recent post i got tons of feed back on... it is long, but ppl really seem to relate...

HER STORY REPEATS

http://elyssad.posterous.com/cyberbusted-rockingjude

Daily dose of TMI: May 13, 3010

Staus: Halted in progress

I don't if know if you received this email. My netbook crashed as I as sending and it froze for 26 hours.

But I did the information for SafeLink program which is wonderful because my extremely "bazaar" and changes the cell service every few days without informing me. Tmobile will not provide information at all so I can't access email because they reset the password. Itonically, the ONE legal snafu with that lttle welfare phone...  the bitch fucked me there too... by claiming me AGAIN as a dependent in New York State.

As you know she claimed as a dependent on her tax returns without my consent or knowledge. The IRS informed me of this breach since every time I went to file my taxed they were rejected by the IRS because it showed up a duplicate Tax (Social Security ID)

She claims that her accountant did and she knew nothing about it (if you could only picture my face and feel the sarcasm in voice as I am forced to repeat this information time and time again to any and all "agencies" who make inquired) she however does see this as a problem and refuses to file an amended return (cost $70.00) so once again I am rendered incapable of establishing independent (in every sense of the

word)

In addition, my father,

My father as you know agreed to be my representative payee for Social Security disability. Obviously that was a big mistake on my part and has yet to be resolved. Congressman Cooper's office totally dropped

the ball and said there is nothing they can do. I requested that reopen the investigation, and despite my persistent nice (which is both annoying and immense) they simply do pretend that I don't exist. Governor Bredesen sent an email telling me to call the President.

Seriously, are you kidding me?

So this is where we stand: no Social Security never received the money that received in IOTLA account during the months I spent sleeping in my car or at the lake last summer.

And yes. I did spend a week or so at "The Mission" when I ran out of gas, energy, and hope last August. My father still was receiving the money, but did not pay bills, or release to me in time to prevent the inevitable total disconnection of any and all services (utilities) making it near impossible to re-establish service. They required excessive fees for deposits and past due balances.

As per federal law, my father, Marc Durant is responsible for paying those fees as they were a direct result of his failure to act in my best interest but also a breach of fiduciary duty.

Now, to make matters worse, every time they seem to locate the paperwork it gets redirected to the Philadelphia field office. So The US Dept of Treasury located the funds that were never sent "in error" some bank account (probably in the Cayman's or wherever rich people go to hide there money ~ note both the sarcasm and the simple fact that this is most likely true. It is sad that even to put in these little side notes to even use the one things that through this mess...

Dark sarcasm and a little bit of humor. I'm sick of making excuses for these people (mother: Karen, and father: Leslie Marc Durant) so I am laying it down on the table for whomever it cares to question and blame me for this "unfortunate" situation..

These are the facts. And I need to take a break because my fingers are getting cramps and my back is in spasm.

But I will continue to "the facts" out as long so that I can be free of the constant struggle to be independent, self-sufficient and EMPLOYED! This is absurdity and I realize I have people who do see the obvious truth here. Yet in the real world and the everyday struggle to be "human" continues.

My mother will always be #batshitcrazy.

My father will always be #abovethelaw.

But I will not always have the strength or the ability to communicate effectively given my financial, physical and emotional reality.

I am aware. I am aware that this is too much for one person to handle and I don't blame those walk away in disgust and frustration because they don't understand the intricate details of the law or the immense emotional drama AND trauma that I face each day without resolution.

I understand that people need to believe that these are the ramblings of a mad woman. If that were true I would say by all means, give me the strongest does of anti psychotics asap. As I think most people are starting to realize, unfortunately, these facts check out.

There is no treatment for the habitual and continued ignorance of the public at large.

It is not my job soothe them or educate them as in law, sociology, and "the world according to me @ElyssaD"

I do the best I can because I know how serious and pervasive certain components of my story ring true for a number of people.

I will do the best I can to fight that stigma and the emotional torture I live with every single say.

Godammit, I hope this thing sends. It is bad enough that I am typing all this shit on cell phone because AT&T wants a $450 non refundable fee plus $150 deposit, plus $49 for installation for internet

So in the spirit of which it was intended:

Wishing myself luck. I know these words are dangerous to some, especially in light of the guy who got arrested for sending out a threatening tweet. Yeah, ~ insert sarcasm about here ~ if you think my words are "dangerous" than you need you deserve to be scared!

(Laughs to oneself as I know I am not a physical threat to anyone but let's face it, if you don't get it you never will. And if this is a lesson is Social Darwinism, let the dumb ones live in fear! And to quote (without permission or proper citation to be added!) But "If this tweet offends you, probably deserve it!"

 @icpchad Yes. I am aware. Now format this bitch and enter it into your contest. I deserve win something... Maybe an iTHINGY or iNTERNET. Not just iWANT that is a legitimate iNEED in the world I live in.

This is me, just me

@ElyssaD

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Elyssa Durant, Ed.M.

Nashville, Tennessee

(615) 424-8810

"You may not care how much I know, but you don't know how much I care."

_________________________________________________________________

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File under: Disambiguation, Crime, Social Justice / Human Rights; Crime, Crisis, Digital Divide, Cognitive Dissonance, Conspiracy

Setting the Record Straight: Hacktivist onamove...

Hacktivism 101: The COINTELPRO Legacy

Social Security Fraud: Abuse of Process or Abuse of Power?

Offering the American people and popultations at risk a false sense of security is unfair and unjust. I would rather have nothing at all than false expectations and disappointment in a social "security" system that has repeatedly failed society's most vulnerable populations.

The bottom line is this, we can pass laws, we can file injunctive orders of relief, waivers for this and for that or pass symbolic legislation to spew a false sense of hope... but if the pattern of "reform" mimics that of recent state efforts, the implementation of the new healthcare program is going to be a freaking disaster!

Public programs that fall short if their promise to assist those in crisis. Unless we demand accountability from state and federal agencies (1) demanding a timely response; (2) create and external entity to do an independent audit to ensure compliance, (3) enforce those laws through whatever means necessary; we have no recourse.

Welcome to my world...

HACKTIVISM 101

ROUND TWO

Street Level Bureaucrat and Local Policy: Is One World Government a Good Idea

Can one world government be a good idea?

So I'm watching this video thinking... oy what do I know about "carbon credits" not much... but I do know about planning for a better tomorrow...  reforestation is something I became familiar with at a very young age because as a gift we would "plant a tree in Israel."  Planning. Did they know something I didn't know... that the world was headed towards destruction and we would need trees to make Oxygen when the shit hit the fan... eg... BP Oil Spill?

But there is a deeper message... one that I have been writing about for a long time. I went through something most people can't imagine. You can check old blog posts or  Reality BYTES  for the ugly details, but what I noticed was that my community virtually [no literally] turned their backs on me.  Why? Because I put a face on human tragedy. This is counter intuitive because I was an active member of the community... held jobs at prestigious institutions and worked for the Government in a number of contract positions.

Yet the community marginalized, ignored, and ridiculed me. People I had known for years... it hurt. It cut so deep I never dreamed of such betrayal.  But what did I learn?

I learned that these community members needed to view me as a statistic so they could go about living their every day lives. So I lived in isolation because no one could look me in the eye or had the decency to pick up the phone and see if I was okay after a widely publicized crisis following a shooting in my apartment complex and a physical assault.

So when Mike talks about helping your neighbors...  I understand that because Charity begins at home. But when we are too busy pinning left against right, placing blame and feeding the green monster of jealousy... well... that just doesn't work for me.

In theory my community should have stepped in but they didn't. Why? I dunno???

Perhaps it was too close to home... ya know if it could happen to me it could happen to them.  And I won't be there to pick up the pieces as I have been in the past. Drowning in Apathy

See this experience violated every sacred belief that I had!  Charity Begins at Home! <<< READ!

And this is what Mike is saying!  The local community is better equipped to handle local crises and have the right to do their own urban planning because they know better than anyone what THEIR community NEEDS!

The only way my so called "community" was able to allow this to happen was to put some kind of something [know words for the degree of apathy] but they needed to view me as someone different from themselves. This simply was not true in the ways that matter, and now it is too late.

Mike talks about a one world government being unsuccessful... is this not any different from the concepts of LEAs and local politics? Do the feds and FEMA really know what we need at the local level? Me thinks not.

If you want change at the local level you go to people who love there not some distant government who is out of touch with reality.  You go to the STREET LEVEL BUREAUCRAT! 

You have a crisis, you go to someone who has survived a crisis!

And don't let them fool you into believing that this is a partisan issue. Listen to the video again...  they are playing both ends against the middle cultivating hatred and jealousy. There is no left, there is no right. And war does not show who is RIGHT only who is LEFT! 

That's all for now...

edd, edm aka "just me @ElyssaD" ;-)

peace.

America Surrenders Civil Liberties to a Culture of Fear

The United States Government is using similar tactics by planting #falseflags to further erode civil liberties and allows us to continue wasteful spending for military intelligence. Military intelligence is an oxymoron.

The m.o. is to create a culture of fear and we have a public that is so ignorant and misinformed that they allow disinformation agents to perpetuate this "war" on terror.

We invest BILLIONS in "defense" which is a farce and a way of channeling money to blue chips to escalate the arms race.



We are willing to tolerate incredible injustices and conveniently ignore the habitual torture practices of the CIA and companies like Blackwater (Monsonto) and COINTELPRO; covert operatives; psyops and BlackOps.

Wake up America, you have no rights!

kinda makes me want to go out and get a gun!

Missile Mystery or Another Epic Failure in US Intelligence

With the CIA funding google wifi [aka wispy] and google providing free wifi across India it kinda makes you wonder. The Pentagon can't even figure out what the fuck they launched off the coast of California and they actually expect us to believe it was a jet or an optical illusion? These continuous false flags keeps the sheep happy in la la land and we somehow tolerate pouring billions of dollars into "defense" when the majority of Americans are barely getting by. And despite this epic embarrassment we will no doubt look the other way when Obama follows in Bush's footsteps continuing to spend more and more money on "intelligence" and expanding the "Patriot Act"    This will no doubt result in the further erosion of our civil liberties and Americans will gladly give up a little privacy for the illusion of safety. all the money  invested in "security" defense and "intelligence" the pentagon actually expects us to believe that the "mystery missile"  #GTFO  kinda makes the pentagon look like ignorant dumbasses... oh wait, that's right. they are! #yeahisaidit and if i just offended you then you are either too ignorant or stupid to see the whole picture!

On Mumia Abu Jamal

How can anyone believe that there is not enough evidence and circumventing details to AT LEAST re-open the case? Is nobody out there listening? I know Americans have a very short attention span, but coupled with selective memory and media filters; gag orders, unpublished opinions-- WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE?


Follow the case. Not just Mumia... start with COINTELPRO, Abscam, and John Africa...

Don't forget about Bill Bennett (the "Drug Czar") Giongo, Hilt, Leo Ryan, Charles Hund, Jumper and the rest of the "Elite Narcotics Squad" aka “FIVE SQUAD” from the infamous 39th District of Philadelphia-- handpicked, of course, by none-other than, whom? Bill Bennett?

Yup! The infamous Drug Czar who used to play racquetball with the head Prosecutor from the MOVE case. Oh, yeah, didn't he say something about just killing all the black babies if you want to fix the good ole U.S. of A.? What an A!

Then, of course, there is the Defense! White, Mayor Frank Rizzo, his son-in-law, Joseph Mastronardo Jr. (and the son-in law of Mayor Frank Rizzo) Giongo, Hilt, Durant. Durant. Durant.

Of course, Wilson Goode now runs PPV (Public Private Ventures) because only a Black mayor could take the fall for the crime of killing his own without the Nation questioning the governments’ actions and violence against its own citizenry. Yup. Thank got Timothy McVeigh was White-- otherwise there would be hell to pay! Ooops-- I almost forget, hell is, I think, a raging inferno of doom. Much like WACO or the MOVE complex or even the World Trade Center, and now of Course... Iraq, Pakistan of Afghanistan.

Fuck you all who want to watch Mumia go to the grave without a fight. Silence the Noisemaker!

So let us sum it all up right here... why don't you just start with the goddamned fucking F.B.I. City of Brotherly Love, my ass! I just call it Filthy-delphia because it is corrupt to the core.

I sure hope Michael Moore is back from Cuba-- because somebody needs to tell the whole story. 1968-1971-1978-1981-1982-MAY 13, 1985!

1987, 1989, 1995, 1999, and it all ends with September 11th, 2001 when lost everything: our freedom, our faith, our conscience, our privacy, but most of all-- the federal records that were stored in the World Trade Center (page 2A, Wall Street Journal, September 12, 2001.)

I will never know whether that evidence condemns a nation or frees one man-- but shit-- whatever it was, it came crashing down in a blazing inferno on the streets of New York. Not unlike the two square city blocks in West Philadelphia. So the Empire Strikes Back??? And of course, Darth Vader is a dead ringer of a Black Nazi from a Smithsonian War Poster from World War II.

"THE ROOF, THE ROOF, THE ROOF IS ON FIRE, WE DON'T WATER... "

Wake up America-- and Long Live John Africa! On a MOVE!

I cannot be the only one who has figured this out... I am not even black. I am just a little Jewish Girl who lives south of the Mason Dixon Line.

--

Elyssa Durant, Ed.M.
Nashville, Tennessee

Call Michael Moore.  I'm ready to talk... I have been ready.

We don't need no water let the mother fucker burn.

FREE MUMIA!

anoter year, another fire

The APPEAL had given me for the thirteen months I actually believed somebody was listening. WRONG AGAIN! That false strength I kept in reserve to keep going was the part of me that needed to believe that I haven't lost everything. It gave a false sense that somebody was actually listening.

I WAS WRONG.... THE APPEAL WAS NEVER REVIEWED. AND NO ONE SEEMS TO GIVE A DAMN THAT THIRTEEN MONTHS HAVE PASSED, AND MY BENEFITS ARE MORE SCREWED UP THAN EVER!

So listen carefully, my friends. It was not too long ago that I had almost everything a young person needs to succeed in this world.

Or maybe not.

As for my most current insurance dispute... I feel that I have done everything humanly possible to be sympathetic towards health care provider who is NOT providing care. I cannot sacrifice my own well being for every bright eyed bushy tailed wanna be who is too stupid to see that I am far from.

I had such a battle this week. It culminated in the end like every other battle I have taken on. I only won because ultimately but we are all losing.

For every under qualified, health care provider who has NOT provided the adequate, there are many more like me. Alienated just enough to give up on fashion, etiquette and social norms; but not enough to walk away from it all.

We are keeping watch. We are taking names, and I for one do not give a rat's ass about "keeping the peace."

Having been on both sides if the proverbial couch, I have the perspective is both enlightening and scary at the same time.

I look back and want to say shout "told you so" from the nearest roof top.

Crazy is crazy does... out loud. I may be enjoying this just a little too much.sometimes

I try to look at this fight, (I meant to say this life) objectively.

I can see my own future, and I can see where it is taking me. I know how it will end if I don't keep up the pace.

It is amazing at how far we will go to have nothing at all.

I have come this far, and on some level I almost enjoy the dance. No. On some level, I actually love the dance.

Then there are days like this.

Because without this turmoil, this exercise in futility, absurdity, government waste, bureaucracy, irreverent disregard for basic human kindness, decency and humanity-- and all long to go to the kind of place I hear about from Dreamon. 

He speaks of a place called Neverland. You see, I don't know the story of Peter Pan, Captain Hook, and I have no idea who Wendy is. Of course I've heard of Tink (though I hear she is a pain in the ass ;) but only because I like glitter pens and fairy dust. I don't know these things, because I don't know the innocence, the purity, the make believe world of childhood. I never had one.

I knew cruelty... and though I am not cruel, this is who I am at this very moment: Dark, discouraged, and deeply disappointed.

What if this is all that there is for me? If I can never break free from this cycle of insanity, and trust me when I say the insanity I speak of is NOT in my head. We have all heard the expression insanity is the sane response to insane surroundings; let me assure that there are very few cases that rival mine. I am the stuff psychologists, sociologists, and the occult speak of behind closed doors. My sister and I were raised this way. She may be a lawyer, she may have good credit, she may have a lot of things, but while my father took me to see the same shrink that treated Danton, Milken, Masrtronardo and more, he took her to see a psychiatrist who specialized in serial killers.

So I wonder, and you should too... did he take us there to be healed or did he take us there to create our futures? I will never be good enough for him. Thank god jesus allah and the power invested in this little stupid wifi device... his vision of us, his vision of U.S. is wrong.

I know this now. I didn't know then. I have proof now. I hardly even need it. It all out in the open and I am glad. Never again should the FBI create hatred, men so indoctrinated by power that they have such little regard for human life that they treat their children the same way they treated John Africa and the thirteen members of MOVE the day the Powers That Beat decided it was long overdue to take John Africa out. So what if thirteen people died with him... who cares about the 5 children who died along with him?

The roof, the roof, the roof is on fire. We don't need no water let the mother fucker burn, Burn, mother fucker, burn.

And they did. And they died. May 13, 1985.

Burned forever in my mind, and it should be in yours too. OUR COUNTRY. OUR PEOPLE. OUR GOVERNMENT.

FUCK YOU AMERICA! FUCK THE US FOR FUCKING US ALL! And thank you daddy, for letting N in on the secret. Now what?

What else would call if not the City of Brotherly Love?

I do. Because my daddy told me to shoot them ya know... just in case. Daddy lost his first and only trial and the CITY of Philadelphia decided it was time to take him out.

No. I won't give up now. I could be next! (As I laugh my fucking ass off!!!!!)

What if I have nothing left? What if the Hook does NOT bring me back?

This demonstration and project in futility and determination has defined me for so long, that without it, I'm not sure if I am anything at all.

fuck that... yeah... Reality Bytes. But I won't play dead, and I won't pretend my name is not Elyssa Danielle Durant. My Daddy changed his, my gold-digging bitch of a mother changed her name 5 times, now with $250K invested in it, her face and her body are quite lovely too.

Mumia is STILL on death row. The 39th District is corrupt to the core. The MAYOR dropped the bomb. May 13, 1985. No longer sealed, and I am no longer hiding, Now I know, why my life stopped when it was about to start. I know the truth, and the feds know I'm certifiable. So you decide...

~~~~~this where I must break~~~ all in due time my friends~~~~

I can't lose what I never had. I won’t be another sell-out... mostly because I don't know how.

I am the voice of perseverance. I am one voice of perseverance. I am one of 47 million Americans. And today I am I am still fighting the good fight.

This battle; this challenge; this half won war this fight has come to define me. And without that, I am not really much of anything at all...

As someone once told me, if you don’t stand for something, you will fall for anything. I've already fallen, but I sure as shit stand for something.

So for now, I write. Maybe later listen. And if there is any justice left in this world, maybe someday, I'll actually live.

Good night, folks. It is time for that break.

Elyssa Durant
Nashville, Tennessee

Parts previously posted at United Professionals under: An Appalling Appeal

 

FILED 9/9/2008

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What About Me?

Thank you-—- worst day ever.T’m foing tojsmf yo&

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Please note that I am copying a third party with this e-mail.

1. Social Security must be advised immediately that they have

(a) The amount on the check is significantly less than the amount stated in the letter I received less than one month ago

(b) My former representative payee misreported my income on his last statement

(c) In addition to misreporting my income, he checked the wrong box so he never told them that I am longer working and do not receive any either income

This is important for several reasons because my re-certification for food stamps and TennCare (Medicaid) is tomorrow and DHS uses the income reported to Social Security to determine my eligibility status. There is somewhat of d domino effect since my Section payment was also changed effective 8/1/2008 based on this information, and as you are aware, my former case manager never mailed in any of the documents requested last March.

I have taken care of the subrogation claim, however, that does not minimize my level of frustration because I am DROWNING in paperwork. I have contacted several agencies to provide assistance, however I do not have the resources necessary to provide them with timely response. There is a very limited time allowed to request reconsideration or ff file an appeal.

I have done everything humanly possible to clean up the slack, however ant this point, I feel I have no other choice than to file a formal complaint so that my entire case is reviewed. The number of mistakes is so overwhelming that I simply do not have enough time to documents each and every one with the respective agency.

I also want to be clear that every time I have to call Social Security or DHS, it only compounds my cost of living expenses (40 cents per minute on the telephone -- a bill which is not even considered to be a justifiable expense) Most agencies do not include self-addressed stamped envelopes, and I can not afford the postage required to mail out all of the requested documentation (e.g., utility bills, medical bills, pay stubs, etc.)

Fortunately, a number of agencies will take online complaints. Unfortunately, my internet was interrupted for non-payment for several weeks and there is no funding resource or community agency that provides subsidized Internet access or free printer ink.

Transportation costs are ridiculous so going to the library is not an option. Neither is returning to work right now, since it would cost too much to get to the interview or provide official (expensive) copies of my graduate school transcripts that were oh, such a good investment!

Set aside, I am not the most user friendly person right about now, so I have found it difficult to put on a happy face so I can work at McDonald's which pays more than Metro anyway.

The subrogation claim has been resolved but I just learned that my breast biopsy was not [pre-authorized and I was told by my INSURANCE CSR (the person who answers the phone) that I should not have the surgery that has already been scheduled at the Women's hospital for 8/21/2008 since they did not authorize the biopsy last month, and have not received a request prior authorization for the surgery that has already been scheduled for next week...

This was a lovely 54 minute conversation because he would not mail me copies of my EOBs or confirm that what, if any, requests have been submitted for payment since my last inquiry and change of address. He finally told me that to call the state (Tennessee) which I have already done several times, and they told me to call Social Security but it was already past business hours and I am not authorized to make changes to my file anyway.

I will try to be more specific later without going into too much detail, but unfortunately, that level of detail is required to file the necessary appeals. Ironic huh? This apartment is like my own little cage, and I am just pathetic enough to run around in circles, hoping to find the much like a hamster wheel, rodent chasing in circles hoping to found my way out my way out before I run out air. If only I had finished my damn PhD, I would do my own case study or reality show on how far we will go to have nothing at all...

And even though my life is a living hell, I have almost learned how to enjoy the sheer irony of it all... for someone with OCD and post-traumatic stress, this is truly a ridiculous little experiment.

I'll be in touch when I can. Unfortunately, each agency has different deadlines, and it takes a lot of energy and time to scan in, copy, or respond to each inquiry in writing, so I find myself running out of time since I cannot seem to get anything done unless I just do nothing at all.

I am becoming increasingly inspired to just burn every last document I own, throw away my keys and my cell phone and take Spotty some place where we can live off the land and ignore the fact that society has me chained to a computer screen that screen that does provide the basic necessities I need to live in this .

I have come this far, and I am becoming rather skilled and at expressing myself without needing an audience or the obsessive need to check every fact, throw, and typo for capitalization and perfection.

So for now... I write. Maybe later, I'll read, but if there is any justice left in this world, someday, I'll actually live.

Good-bye for now. I need a break.

With love,

Your little sis.



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Elyssa Durant, Ed.M.
Nashville, Tennessee
Reply to: elyssa.durant@columbia.edu

"You may not care how much I know, but you don't know how much I care."

Cleaning Out My Closet

"Cleanin
"Cleanin Out My Closet" by Eminem 

Where's my snare?
I have no snare in my headphones - there you go
Yeah... yo, yo
Have you ever been hated or discriminated against?
I have; I've been protested and demonstrated against
Picket signs for my wicked rhymes, look at the times
Sick as the mind of the motherfucking kid that's behind
All this commotion emotions run deep as ocean's exploding
Tempers flaring from parents just blow 'em off and keep going
Not taking nothing from no one give 'em hell long as I'm breathing
Keep kicking ass in the morning and taking names in the evening
Leave 'em with a taste as sour as vinegar in they mouth
See they can trigger me, but they'll never figure me out
Look at me now; I bet ya probably sick of me now ain't you momma?
I'm a make you look so ridiculous now
I'm sorry momma!
I never meant to hurt you!
I never meant to make you cry; but tonight
I'm cleaning out my closet (one more time)
I said I'm sorry momma!
I never meant to hurt you!
I never meant to make you cry; but tonight
I'm cleaning out my closet
Ha! I got some skeletons in my closet
And I don't know if no one knows it
So before they thrown me inside my coffin and close it
I'm a expose it; I'll take you back to '73
Before I ever had a multi-platinum selling CD
I was a baby, maybe I was just a couple of months
My faggot father must have had his panties up in a bunch
Cause he split, I wonder if he even kissed me goodbye
No I don't on second thought I just fucking wished he would die
I look at Hailie, and I couldn't picture leaving her side
Even if I hated Kim, I grit my teeth and I'd try
To make it work with her at least for Hailie's sake
I maybe made some mistakes
But I'm only human, but I'm man enough to face them today
What I did was stupid, no doubt it was dumb
But the smartest shit I did was take the bullets outta that gun
Cause I'da killed him; shit I would've shot Kim and him both
It's my life, I'd like to welcome y'all to "The Eminem Show"
I'm sorry momma!
I never meant to hurt you!
I never meant to make you cry; but tonight
I'm cleaning out my closet (one more time)
I said I'm sorry momma!
I never meant to hurt you!
I never meant to make you cry; but tonight
I'm cleaning out my closet
Now I would never diss my own momma just to get recognition
Take a second to listen for who you think this record is dissing
But put yourself in my position; just try to envision
Witnessing your momma popping prescription pills in the kitchen
Bitching that someone's always going through her purse and shit's missing
Going through public housing systems, victim of Munchhausen's Syndrome
My whole life I was made to believe I was sick when I wasn't
'Til I grew up, now I blew up, it makes you sick to ya stomach
Doesn't it? Wasn't it the reason you made that CD for me Ma?
So you could try to justify the way you treated me Ma?
But guess what? You're getting older now and it's cold when your lonely
And Nathan's growing up so quick he's gonna know that your phony
And Hailie's getting so big now; you should see her, she's beautiful
But you'll never see her - she won't even be at your funeral!
See what hurts me the most is you won't admit you was wrong
Bitch do your song - keep telling yourself that you was a mom!
But how dare you try to take what you didn't help me to get
You selfish bitch; I hope you fucking burn in hell for this shit
Remember when Ronnie died and you said you wished it was me?
Well guess what, I am dead - dead to you as can be!
I'm sorry momma!
I never meant to hurt you!
I never meant to make you cry; but tonight
I'm cleaning out my closet (one more time)
I said I'm sorry momma!
I never meant to hurt you!
I never meant to make you cry; but tonight
I'm cleaning out my closet
I'm sorry momma!
I never meant to hurt you!
I never meant to make you cry; but tonight
I'm cleaning out my closet (one more time)
I said I'm sorry momma!
I never meant to hurt you!
I never meant to make you cry; but tonight
I'm cleaning out my closet

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